Charmed Life

Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real toubles in life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind the blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday ~ Mary Schmich


Charmed Life

Waiting for the other shoe. It’s like I’ve been dodging it for 15 years now. Fall in love, raise your family. Knowing the whole time. There is no such thing as safe. Nothing worth having is safe. Anything with any value stands the risk of being lost.

So many blessings. So many things went RIGHT. So many perfections. So much to be grateful for. And it’s not the fear of the unknown. It’s not even the fear of something being wrong. It’s the idea that it’s just going to keep getting better. That I might relax. That I might forget.

I need to remember. I have to remember. It’s too important to forget. We are fragile. In the blink of an eye, the whole world changes. If you’re too deeply rooted in your reality, in your grip of “how things are” you simply can’t slide from one paradigm to another. I have to be there. I have to be ready. I can’t live in the free fall again, waiting for the ground to rush up to meet me. I just can’t.

So I help the baby birds to stretch their wings. To feel the wind against them. Even if they’re not ready to use them, I want them to know they have them. I want them to realize what they’re for.

Human time is finite. Humankind is fragile. My greatest strength and my greatest weakness is that I chose to spend my life embracing that. There are far worse things.